Heavy Heart...

Two things that I have learned since becoming a mom... 1. It is the best job in the world, and 2. It can be very hard at times.

There is no better feeling than holding your precious baby, and as they get older, it is such a wonderful feeling to see them smile at you, to hear them laugh, to see them get excited when you walk into the room, and to witness each and every one of their milestones over time.

I now know of 2 different families that are experiencing difficult times with their sweet babies. One family I don't know as well, but their son is fighting leukemia, and he is only a few weeks older than Landon. I have heard, but don't remember, all of the details of this situation. It really hits home with me though because of the closeness in age between this little boy and my own. I am so very thankful for Landon.

The second family I do know pretty well and think the absolute world of them. I come in contact with them for many different reasons and occasions. They recently had their sweet baby girl, and due to uncontrollable complications during child birth, this precious little girl had to be sent to Vanderbilt. She is/has been/will be undergoing lots of tests and procedures to determine what is going on. As if that would not be hard enough, her mom, having just given birth, had to stay behind at the hospital in Jackson while her husband and her baby girl went on to Vanderbilt. My first reaction to this news was "Why?" I know how excited this family was to bring their baby girl into the world, so I was confused as to why something like this would happen to such wonderful people.

As a mom myself, it would be devastating to me to have to send my newborn child and my husband away while I had to stay behind. But this strong mother seemed to have such a great attitude about everything that was going on. She and her husband have been on an emotional rollercoaster throughout the past several days, and they continue to stay positive throughout the entire situation. To me, this is such a testimony of this sweet couple's heart. I know God has a plan for everyone, and for whatever reason, he has chosen this family to be in this particular situation.

My heart is heavy for these two families. They both have babies that need prayers every single day. I have complained before that Landon didn't sleep all night because he was teething, or I have been aggravated that I couldn't get anything done in the house because Landon was too fussy. I have truly been humbled by these two families' situations. I actually feel extremely guilty for complaining about something so silly. I feel ashamed that I have been aggravated for something so small. At least my little boy is healthy and able to be home with me. At least I can hold him when he wants me to hold him. Throughout the past few days, I have been reminded what is really important in life. I have realized that my "bad days" no longer seem that bad.

Please continue to pray for the sweet little boy that has been diagnosed with leukemia, as well as the precious little girl who is awaiting test results at Vanderbilt. Pray for their families to continue to be strong, and for the doctors and nurses that are caring for them. Prayer is such a powerful thing... please remember to pray for these people daily!